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Family, Fairgrounds, and the Year of Transformation 220

Family, Fairgrounds, and the Year of Transformation 220

How much can life change in just one year? Join us as we reflect on this provocative question, exploring the transformative power of embracing growth through struggles. We dive into the significance of those uncomfortable yet necessary conversations that foster personal development. Broadcasting from our cozy camper, Matilda, amidst the bustling Freiburg Fair, we sprinkle in some light-hearted banter about camper life, touching on humorous debates about space and upgrades, and reminisce about our first camper, Tallulah, and the amusing radio conversations that have punctuated our journey.

From freezing nights in a 1994 Ford ambulance to confidently managing our vendor space with our newborn daughter, Paisley Reign, our lives have evolved in ways we never imagined. This episode takes a nostalgic look back at our vendor beginnings, illustrating our progress from rough starts to our current state of joy and fulfillment. We recount the poignant moments of introducing Paisley to the Freiburg Fair, reflecting on how far we've come both as a family and a business, with each camper upgrade marking a significant milestone in our journey.

The heartwarming moments don’t stop there—we share a special weekend where we hosted Paisley’s godparents, filled with bonding, car shows, DJ parties, and the chaos of new parenthood. We also delve into the emotional experience of attending the fair without a beloved family member, capturing the bittersweet blend of memories and new beginnings. With tales of generosity, family bonds, and the strength found in both laughter and tears, this episode offers a touching blend of wisdom, humor, and heartfelt reflections. Tune in to celebrate life’s unexpected blessings and the incredible journey of growth and change.

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Chapters

00:01 - Changing World

04:30 - Evolution of Campsite Living

14:51 - Special Visit and Family Bonding

23:56 - Embracing Generosity and Family Traditions

32:35 - Reflecting on Family and Loss

Transcript
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Life is funny and today, on episode 220, we look at just how much your world can change in a year.

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Goodbyes, hellos and places we never thought we would go.

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Let me tell you something Everybody struggles.

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The difference is some people choose to go through it and some choose to grow through it.

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The choice is completely yours, and some choose to grow through it.

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The choice is completely yours.

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Which one you choose will have a very profound effect on the way you live your life.

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If you find strength in the struggle, then this podcast is for you.

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Do you have a relationship that is comfortable with uncomfortable conversations?

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Uncomfortable conversations challenge you, humble you and they build you.

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When you sprinkle a little time and distance on it, it all makes sense.

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Most disagreements they stem from our own insecurities.

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You are right where you need to be.

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Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh.

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What it do, what it?

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How did it do?

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Mm, mm, mm, mm.

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Am I so damn happy to be back with you.

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Oh, it's true, it's damn true.

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And this time this episode is just a touch different, and it might sound a wee bit different because this episode of the podcast just happens to be being recorded at the infamous Freiburg Fair.

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In Matilda.

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Oh yeah, I forgot what we named this old girl, yep Matilda, good old Matilda.

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What was the first one, tallulah?

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Tallulah, yeah and Matilda.

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What are we going one?

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Tallulah, tallulah and Matilda.

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What are we going to name our next one?

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See, that's the problem with us.

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We're already talking about our next camper.

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Literally at dinner.

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But we put an expansion kit on the family, so I think it's appropriate that we maximize our space.

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Is it bad that, since we've been on the road, I've literally gotten?

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We had the ambulance?

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and I was like fuck.

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that I am not sleeping in that again.

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Wow, you're the first one to swear already.

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Yep, we're a minute and 20 seconds in Goodness.

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Not sleeping in the ambulance again, and I've literally gotten a new camper every single year.

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Yeah, so this camper.

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This is our second year here with this camper, but it was pretty fresh when we were here last year because we broke it out at windsor and now we're here this year and we're already talking about like man may not bring this one back next year I mean, this is a great one.

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I just think that we need a new layout with the baby yeah, I think the camper is fine, and that's not everything we needed to do.

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We just didn't know when we bought the camper that we were going to be looking for extra space.

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I don't think this year, though, or this coming camper, that I get.

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I should say I don't think I'm going to go up in size I think 28, 30, I'm maxed out.

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I think I haul this size comfortably.

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I don't think we really need any more length on the camper, but some width would be nice.

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A couple more slides would be nice.

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You want some big hips.

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Big hips, don't lie baby.

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I got your big hips right here, them child bearin' hips, oh yeah.

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Birthin' hips Bear said child.

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Oh yeah, birth and hips Bear said child.

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I guess let's just get right into that, because we had a conversation on the way here today that we're going to dip into.

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You were hauling the camper, I was behind you hauling the baby.

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Yeah, on our two-way radio.

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We're using a two-way radio man.

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And you, you know.

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So, yeah me, Pepe, let you hear.

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I don't know why, but all I thought about was no more locked doors.

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No, more locked doors.

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What was that from?

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I don't know.

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It's from some movie.

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Somebody tell me I don't know, but it's, I don't.

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Okay, I'll take it.

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I'll have to find it All right.

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That works, but in that accent that you just found.

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It all came in there, Literally.

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I'll have to find it and show you.

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Well, based on our conversation, and then what we were going to start the podcast off with today is kind of talking about how crazy life is and how much things can change, and we're going to get into a little bit about just how much our lives have changed over the course of the past year.

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But, seeing as how you're talking about Matilda and you're talking about Tallulah, you're talking about the ambulance and all those things, I want to talk about this very campsite.

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Because here we are, we're at the Freiburg Fair, it's Tuesday evening.

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We just pulled in tonight and set our camp up and then tomorrow morning we're going to put the shell up for our vendor space and then we're going to scoot, skit and skedaddle on home and I'm going to go to work, work the night shift, and Thursday you and my mom will pack the bus and I'll finish making stuff all day and night and if all goes well, we'll be back here on Friday to start building our display.

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But the interesting thing is that we have had the same campsite for every year that we've been coming to the Freiburg Fairs vendors.

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So Fairview Site 2077, that's where we're at.

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This is our spot, and I just can't help but think about how different this spot has been over the course of the years and if you've been listening along you already know kind of where we're going here.

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But the first year that we did the Freiburg Fair as vendors we stayed in a 1994 Ford ambulance.

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Remember that.

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I do remember that.

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In case you're wondering, it's called Next Door.

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It was created in 2000.

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And the guy literally says no more locked doors.

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Okay, I'll take your word for it.

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I just had to look it up so our first year here was that like 2021, maybe Because the pandemic stuff 2020, they canceled it, so 21,.

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This would be our fourth year here.

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That sounds about right.

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Yeah, four years.

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So our first year we brought the 94 ambulance and the key is that when we set up as vendors and we stayed in the ambulance, we had to dump every single thing that we had with us onto the field, make a vendor display as much as we could, and then get to the campsite and convert the ambulance into a camper.

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And then get to the campsite and convert the ambulance into a camper.

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Not to share the same story year after year.

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But the first year that we came here, when I rolled into the Freiburg Fair, I lost brakes in the ambulance and it was just a shit show.

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And when I managed to turn the camper or the ambulance into a camper, I forgot all the connections to have power.

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So we had no lights, no heat, no water, no bathroom.

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We literally had to get a port-a-potty and set it up in the middle of an ambulance, and that's what we use for our bathroom overnight.

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We had an air mattress on top of crates.

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We froze our frigging asses off, but we did it and we made it work and at the end of that week, you said I'm never doing this again and you went out and purchased our first camper and then, in 2022,.

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We came back with Tallulah.

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Tallulah, which was a camper with a slide on it on the back.

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That was a manual one that I always felt like I was going to fly out of the back end and flip the camper over.

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This is true.

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But we upgraded to that camper and we learned a lot.

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And then last year we brought this year Matilda to this campsite.

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And then this year we're back here with Matilda and we're also here with Our Matilda.

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Miss Paisley Rain yeah.

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It's crazy to think and we've been talking about it this whole time tonight that we're here recording and then right there in the bedroom, down the hall here, there's a little baby sleeping here.

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I can't.

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I can't even wrap my head around it it's so crazy to think that a few years ago, we were sleeping in this exact same spot in a freaking ambulance freezing our nuts off.

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Yeah, and just a few years later, we're here with our first born child.

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Yep, beautiful, beautiful little child, beautiful little girl.

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She's perfect, she's beautiful, she's fantastic, she's doing fabulous.

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She's going to be fabulous.

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So great, she's so great.

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She's so blessed.

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She's going to be tired of being blessed.

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Anyways.

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I don't know why I had to go into my Trump impersonation right there, uncle.

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Trump.

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Yeah, that's right.

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I can't even fathom the fact.

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I can vividly remember cooking breakfast and dinners outside of the ambulance with a flashlight.

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I remember burning a pizza on a barbecue Like a little propane grill.

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I burned a pizza and I remember trying to feed my mom this pizza and it was like as crispy looking as that microphone over there.

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It was black as night and I had to scrape the burns off and you couldn't see I was sitting there with a flashlight trying to grill a pizza.

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My mom was like, yeah, it's good.

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I just think about like.

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I remember in the mornings being out there freezing my ass off trying to like make a coffee, trying to like toast, a bagel.

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watching the sunrise, watching the steam come off the mountains I can remember it.

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We've come a long way.

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It's unbelievable how much like we've grown as a business when you think about the time that has passed.

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But I can't even believe that just a few short years ago I'm out there freezing my ass off, just grunting through our first year here, and now we're here like absolute pros.

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We've been here a handful of years, we know what we're doing, we know where we're going and they trust us with a freaking baby.

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I don't know.

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It's crazy that our baby is almost a month old already.

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It scares me.

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Time is flying.

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It absolutely is flying.

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Did you just put my cup in your shoe?

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I was trying to put my cup down and not make a noise in the camper, and when you see me go to the cup it's your responsibility to talk so I can get hydrated.

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Oh sorry, you know what I mean.

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I wasn't prepared.

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I was watching this man on the news.

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He had a ski mask on a Halloween ski mask.

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I saw that this pizza's got me a little thirsty over here.

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So Thank you Freiberg House Pizza for dinner.

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Yeah, nothing that we do is on time and on par right, and everybody that listens to this podcast knows that this is just how our life goes.

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No, you know what kind of time it's on Borrowed time, you're not even kidding.

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Just today alone, just to give a little screenshot, a little snapshot this morning.

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Well, god bless you.

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Let's go back to the evening, right?

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Because you texted me.

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I was in the office working at 1030, and you're like, I'm feeding the baby and she's about to go down.

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Let's actually try to sleep, because we got a busy day, right, and, uh, that turned into it's midnight and she's still partying yeah so you got very little sleep and, uh, I got up at 5 am and I said there's no sense in me trying to sleep.

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I brought my mom to work and then I went to work and started making stuff and I managed to catch a nap.

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Brought my mom to work and then I went to work and started making stuff and I managed to catch a nap this afternoon, which was glorious.

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Me too.

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Glorious what?

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Me too, you're catching one right now.

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I can see it in your eyelids.

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Listen, I have a newborn at home.

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As soon as you fall asleep, she's going to start yelling.

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That's what she does to me.

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So, anyways, we then load things up, the stuff we need to get started and to get our camper here, and then we proceed to head out and of course we run into an accident and slow traffic and this and that.

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So by the time we get to our site, we did not have an accident.

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We didn't have one.

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God bless you, knock on wood, knock on wood.

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So we get here right as um like, let's call it nightfall.

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Okay, it was sunset when we were like five miles down the road, so we get here just in time to not be able to see the lines in our campsite.

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There's a d-bag parked across from us with a trailer blocking our like pull-through options or like turnaround options, so we spent an hour finagling away to kitty corner a can of tuna into a parking spot I refuse to say that it was a full hour, because it was 52 minutes.

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I checked.

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I checked 52 minutes I am not, that's not bad.

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I am not, that's not bad?

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I am not that bad at parking my camper.

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I have done it enough times to know, but this boner in front of me every year gets me with this stupid trailer and I'm about to hitch onto it.

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Leave it in the dooryard.

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We're a little side-winded in here.

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Not bad, though I don't think it's awful, I don't think so.

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It's just not the way we normally would be.

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Normally we'd have enough space to park our vehicle in here with us, and we ain't going to do that this year.

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But we'll figure it out, We'll figure it out.

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I'm in my parking spot.

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I don't care if I'm sideways, upside down or on my head.

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But we went from being early, being on time, to getting pizza at 9 o'clock before the restaurant closed, to recording a podcast at 11 to hopefully try to get some sleep.

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This is us, this is our life, this is how we roll.

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Yeah, exactly.

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And then we've got mayhem ahead of us to get ready for the opening day of the fair.

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But things have been going great at home trying to get things done of the fair.

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But things have been going great at home trying to get things done.

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And I don't know the best way to kind of like describe this or put this out there, but last weekend we were blessed with an amazing visit.

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Let's say, am I right?

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Yes.

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So I've been talking a lot and you're watching the news and falling asleep, so I want to let you intro this Would you discuss said visitation that we just had you go?

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Yes, you, you take it, because I'm not gonna let you fall asleep, cinderella come on.

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Well, it was um a very wonderful visit from little miss paisley's godparents.

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They took the trip up from new york and they had the opportunity to bond with her and have some one-on-one time, which was super nice, and she's just so blessed to have the two of them.

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We actually took them to a little car show and we also.

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They came out to a dj party night oh yeah, that's right which was a lot of fun.

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Yeah, so they got to.

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It was a well-rounded weekend.

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They got to spend some time and then partying with us, and we took paisley out um to dinner for the first time with them so a few good things.

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So let's put it this way so the first night, well they, they show up on friday, yeah, and it's truly a blessing to see them seeing her in person for the very first time.

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That was special to see them really light up.

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Absolutely.

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Then Friday night was my last DJ night of the season at the Saloon and they came out and made that a great time.

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I think that we all had a lot of fun there.

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Then Saturday we brought Paisley to her first car show Right and we spent the day just kind of out running around doing things together.

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And Saturday night we brought the little baby out for her very first dinner on the town First night out on the town, and she was able to do that with her godparents.

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I thought that was a special little Chinese dinner it was.

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And she did very well.

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I didn't even drip duck sauce on her head or anything which is a miracle.

00:16:25.928 --> 00:16:28.268
Well, good thing I had her sheltered in the.

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Popemobile.

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Yes.

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You would have got duck sauce or Rangoon in her butt chin.

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Watch your mouth.

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Disappointed.

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Watch your friggin' mouth.

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So we got to spend some time with those guys and then I was also able to work in getting some things done.

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I didn't want to like I felt bad pulling away from them.

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We have a lot of things to do and a lot of things to get done, but I wasn't going to just like go to my office, shelter in place and try to work my ass off you.

00:16:58.826 --> 00:17:00.208
And try to work my ass off you know what I mean Too soon.

00:17:01.611 --> 00:17:03.374
There was one of those in town.

00:17:03.794 --> 00:17:05.217
Yeah, boy Well.

00:17:05.577 --> 00:17:06.159
Can't say that.

00:17:06.499 --> 00:17:08.645
Yeah, okay, well, whatever.

00:17:08.645 --> 00:17:17.486
So the point I'm making here is that I wanted to spend time with those guys, so I wanted to make sure that we were able to do that, and then you just work around it.

00:17:17.506 --> 00:17:25.140
And Saturday night I think, I stayed in the office until about 2 in the morning and then Sunday was 1-ish in the morning.

00:17:25.140 --> 00:17:31.845
But we're getting things done, because I ordered a whole mess of stuff and I think we've talked about it already on the podcast.

00:17:31.845 --> 00:17:39.692
But I am primed to put ourselves in the best inventory position that we've ever had going into the Freiburg Fair.

00:17:39.692 --> 00:17:51.484
So I'm working countless hours, I'm avoiding all forms of contact with other areas of my life just to try to get through this, because I know it's exactly what the family needs and the business needs.

00:17:51.484 --> 00:17:59.369
We have the rest of our season just hinged on the next week of success here, the next what are we here for?

00:17:59.390 --> 00:18:00.252
seven, eight, nine days, I don't know, is it?

00:18:00.252 --> 00:18:02.541
Yeah, I was going to say Sunday to here the next what are we here for seven, eight, nine days?

00:18:02.561 --> 00:18:03.023
I don't know, is it?

00:18:03.023 --> 00:18:05.912
Yeah, I was gonna say I thought sunday to sunday, right 10 days.

00:18:05.972 --> 00:18:16.506
But yeah, you're right it's all on the line, but I truly feel that, um, this is going to be the best freiburg fair year that we've ever had, so I'm excited about that.

00:18:16.506 --> 00:18:24.359
And, um, it's extra special and it's also extra challenging the fact that you know we are here with a freaking newborn.

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I mean, she's three weeks old, right.

00:18:26.471 --> 00:18:28.009
Yeah, it's so crazy to me.

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On the way up here, we're going back and forth on the two-way radios and you had said I can't believe that.

00:18:34.353 --> 00:18:39.101
Like you know, she's here and she's here on time for the fair.

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We were worried this whole time, I mean from the moment that we found out that we were going to welcome her in september they gave us the due date we were worried like, hey, if she goes late, what happens?

00:18:51.200 --> 00:18:52.505
You know how do we navigate the freiburg fair.

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You know what if, if something's happening, what's going on?

00:18:56.294 --> 00:18:57.718
Like how do we, how do we get through this?

00:18:57.718 --> 00:18:58.026
You know what?

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I mean her adjusting all those things and you said, hey, man, we're on our way to the fair and she's been here for almost a month.

00:19:05.009 --> 00:19:12.401
You know it's uh, so crazy, it's wild, like I mean for a fact you spend nine months thinking about that exact time.

00:19:12.500 --> 00:19:14.626
You know that's all we talked about for the nine months.

00:19:14.967 --> 00:19:19.894
So the fact that we've, you know, crossed cross that bridge, accomplish that goal.

00:19:19.894 --> 00:19:23.298
It's um, it's, it's crazy.

00:19:23.298 --> 00:19:29.717
It's crazy to think that, um, just the the fact that these things, they're actually happening.

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You know what I mean.

00:19:30.278 --> 00:19:32.815
Some things, just, I don't know.

00:19:32.815 --> 00:19:36.827
When you start thinking about them and you start hyper focusing on them, it almost feels like it's never going to happen.

00:19:36.827 --> 00:19:42.919
It feels like a you know, you're eight years old, again waiting for Santa Claus, and it's January 1st.

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You know what I mean.

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Like, hey, buddy, you got almost a year to go.

00:19:46.852 --> 00:19:47.594
Wait, wait, wait.

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What, what, what, what?

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We have to take a moment and thank a very special friend of ours who Are you doing a shout out?

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Are you doing like a?

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Yeah, I am A winning Wednesday weekly.

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Shout out To Amanda for stopping by once again.

00:20:14.438 --> 00:20:14.759
Mm-mm.

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To drop off Food delivery.

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Oh my God, that lasagna was the bombcom.

00:20:20.990 --> 00:20:26.666
I don't know like.

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I could eat better if she cooked for us all the time that's what I was literally just going to say.

00:20:30.565 --> 00:20:35.698
I don't know how to go about it, but like I just want to hire her to like cook my meals for me, oh my God.

00:20:36.165 --> 00:20:39.054
I could eat healthy if Amanda cooked all my meals.

00:20:39.715 --> 00:20:39.996
Maybe not.

00:20:39.996 --> 00:20:44.395
Okay, like all right, maybe not all of them, I like to cheat 95%.

00:20:44.395 --> 00:20:47.232
Yeah, sure I like to cheat on food.

00:20:47.595 --> 00:20:48.519
And not cheat on your husband.

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I'll black your eyes.

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You know what I'm saying?

00:20:49.805 --> 00:20:52.913
No, but I like to go to McDonald's or I like-.

00:20:52.932 --> 00:20:53.513
McDonald's.

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Where are you from?

00:20:54.356 --> 00:20:58.770
Anyways, I like to go to McDonald's, you know what?

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I mean how you doing over here.

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I go to McDonald's, get myself a freaking snack wrap and a Big Mac.

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What you doing?

00:21:09.269 --> 00:21:09.409
here.

00:21:09.409 --> 00:21:12.573
Hey, they don't even have snack wraps anymore, and that pisses me off.

00:21:12.593 --> 00:21:14.194
It's a soft spot, isn't it Very?

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soft.

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Back to eating healthy McDonald's.

00:21:16.597 --> 00:21:17.338
No what?

00:21:17.338 --> 00:21:18.480
Where are you from?

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My God, goodness, I don't know.

00:21:22.828 --> 00:21:24.832
Amanda, here it is.

00:21:24.832 --> 00:21:26.673
Thank you so damn much, Seriously.

00:21:26.794 --> 00:21:28.457
thank you a hundred times over.

00:21:28.856 --> 00:21:35.075
Please just keep making food for me Anytime, because people are listening and they want to know what the hell we're talking about.

00:21:35.075 --> 00:21:39.236
She made us a lasagna with squash noodles.

00:21:39.236 --> 00:21:46.365
And it's a squash that I've never seen in my life, and my first job of this said life was working in a produce department.

00:21:46.444 --> 00:21:47.410
You know what it looks like.

00:21:48.384 --> 00:21:50.409
The mothership it does look like the mothership.

00:21:50.409 --> 00:21:51.109
It's funny.

00:21:51.411 --> 00:21:51.750
What did she?

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call it.

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Button squash.

00:21:52.952 --> 00:21:53.734
Is that what it was called?

00:21:53.734 --> 00:21:55.478
Is that what she said?

00:21:55.718 --> 00:21:58.086
I don't know, I wasn't there for that.

00:21:58.105 --> 00:21:59.487
I was going to say I was drunk, but I wasn't.

00:21:59.866 --> 00:22:01.107
No, you were very much sober.

00:22:01.107 --> 00:22:05.990
No, but these little squashes they look like the mothership.

00:22:05.990 --> 00:22:08.192
They do look like a little alien mothership.

00:22:08.633 --> 00:22:09.874
They're freaking delicious.

00:22:10.294 --> 00:22:21.642
But anyway, Amanda, seriously, if you just want to drop that little blue cooler off at any point in time, I would not say no.

00:22:21.642 --> 00:22:26.106
And I'll even pay you for it.

00:22:26.106 --> 00:22:26.648
You damn right, I want to.

00:22:26.648 --> 00:22:28.291
I want to know what the menu is.

00:22:28.352 --> 00:22:38.301
Seriously, I want to put a little emphasis on her commitment to like her, her passion, her commitment and her just compassion.

00:22:38.301 --> 00:22:43.115
Because she's going through some family stuff right now and she's doing a lot of traveling.

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She's going back and forth from missouri doing all this crazy stuff and when someone's trying to run a farm, trying to live a life, travel all the way across the country being there to support their family and then in the middle of all that says I gotta cook dinner for keith and ally because they have a newborn.

00:23:02.493 --> 00:23:05.471
I know she's such an amazing soul.

00:23:05.471 --> 00:23:07.875
Out of control, love her.

00:23:07.875 --> 00:23:11.230
She's great, absolutely phenomenal.

00:23:11.791 --> 00:23:20.759
It's funny If I think about Friday, Friday morning, old BP Brian Pomelo stopped over, bought some stuff and dropped off three jars of Shine and met Paisley for the first time.

00:23:20.759 --> 00:23:28.905
Three jars of shine and met Paisley for the first time and then shortly after that, you know Amanda's like hey, I want to come over with um the food fairy and I'm coming by with with food for you guys.

00:23:28.945 --> 00:23:35.807
and then Lance and Jen show up and I didn't even realize, actually, until you like, maybe that's why I was so tired that day.

00:23:36.990 --> 00:23:45.250
No, it's because I have a newborn no, I just think it's crazy the amount of support we have in our lives and you don't always stop and think about what you have.

00:23:45.250 --> 00:23:52.835
And it blows my mind that people are willing to put their life on hold to show appreciation to somebody else's.

00:23:52.835 --> 00:23:54.198
I just I don't know man.

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Phenomenal.

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I never in a million years had this thought process in my mind.

00:24:01.196 --> 00:24:03.632
That was like oh, becky had a baby.

00:24:03.632 --> 00:24:05.770
I should cook her dinner because she's probably tired.

00:24:05.770 --> 00:24:06.953
You know what I mean.

00:24:06.953 --> 00:24:09.025
No I never thought about that stuff.

00:24:09.045 --> 00:24:11.032
But you know what I am going to do from now on.

00:24:11.032 --> 00:24:18.634
Anyone that I know is having a baby, I'm going to definitely grandfather that, because that is amazing, because here's the deal.

00:24:18.634 --> 00:24:50.296
That's the last thing that I want to think about when I'm like breastfeeding or I have to pump for the 80th time today and just it's not something that you actually think about, like as a new mom, new parents, like just to have, like make sure things are ready and you're just like I did all the other things preparing, except for making um meals for us.

00:24:50.477 --> 00:25:02.516
So like I mean zach and danny showed up with two meals for us shepherd's pie and chicken pot pie people are so generous, like honestly, like I, I uh, it's definitely something that I'm gonna adopt from now.

00:25:02.576 --> 00:25:10.868
I never even thought of that stuff, you know like me neither I mean when manda dropped off a whole mess of food for us is when my dad was was sick a year ago.

00:25:10.868 --> 00:25:19.252
Yeah, you know like to think of doing that also as something to pay forward for other people, like it's a it's a goldmine.

00:25:19.252 --> 00:25:24.592
It's something that people just don't don't think about doing, and it is such a such an amazing gesture.

00:25:24.633 --> 00:25:25.775
So and here's the deal.

00:25:25.775 --> 00:25:45.696
Like even manda was telling us, like she was like making us something, but like if you're making a shepherd's pie for yourself for dinner, just make a small little extra one yeah for someone who's in need, like or you know, maybe just struggling, you know it's just struggling you know, it's pretty awesome, something I never really thought of I know Me neither.

00:25:45.805 --> 00:25:50.653
But it really reminds me of my grandparents, that stuff my grandmother would have done for people you know.

00:25:51.465 --> 00:25:56.369
You have a little faith in society at that point A little, Little little bit.

00:25:57.765 --> 00:26:00.067
But we've had a special weekend.

00:26:00.067 --> 00:26:16.601
But we've had a special weekend and we've really been counting our blessings about how things have been going with the little one and her being healthy and all the support that we have, and also focusing on getting to Freiburg, because this is our most important event of the year.

00:26:16.601 --> 00:26:18.362
We look forward to this event every year.

00:26:18.362 --> 00:26:20.446
We depend on this event.

00:26:20.446 --> 00:26:24.173
We gamble everything we own on this event event every year we depend on this event.

00:26:24.192 --> 00:26:26.704
We gamble everything we own on this event.

00:26:26.704 --> 00:26:31.948
You know it's a vicious cycle of poker.

00:26:31.948 --> 00:26:35.494
We play to keep the business running, but I come here all jacked up just waiting for it, you know.

00:26:35.494 --> 00:26:46.076
And this year it's a greater challenge and I'm not going to get into it a lot tonight, but there's some things about this week that I've been dreading, you know.

00:26:46.337 --> 00:26:52.588
And we were on our way up here and we were talking on the two way radios and you mentioned that.

00:26:52.588 --> 00:26:56.458
You know, I just can't believe that we're coming up here and we have our baby with us, you know.

00:26:56.458 --> 00:27:04.967
And I said, you know, and it really only hit me when we turn the corner and I can kind of start seeing the mountains up here.

00:27:04.967 --> 00:27:25.444
And you know, I came to the Freiburg fair with my dad every year of my life until man, probably like in my twenties when I started coming on my own, you know, and even then I would drive up here on my own and then meet my dad here on Woodsman's day and then I would drive up here on my own and then meet my dad here on Woodsman's Day.

00:27:25.785 --> 00:27:50.265
It was always a family reunion type of day, and I had mentioned to you that this is the last thing on my schedule the last memorable event of the year that I'm going to do for the first time without my dad.

00:27:53.184 --> 00:27:54.931
Everything else that we've done for the first time we've done.

00:27:54.931 --> 00:28:05.587
We've had Thanksgiving without my dad, we've had Christmas without my dad, we've had New Year's without my dad, we've had Father's Day, we've had his birthday, we've had my birthday, the birth of our daughter.

00:28:05.587 --> 00:28:09.636
We've done all these things without my dad for the first time.

00:28:09.636 --> 00:28:28.682
This is the last thing that I'm't make the connection on it.

00:28:28.682 --> 00:28:34.724
I really didn't make the connection.

00:28:34.724 --> 00:28:44.576
I knew this week would be hard, but I didn't imagine when I turned down Main Street I would just start bawling my eyes out thinking about my dad.

00:28:44.576 --> 00:28:48.335
I didn't think that that would happen.

00:28:48.335 --> 00:29:11.396
And the connection that I didn't make until right now on this podcast is that I'm pulling into the Freiburg Fair driving my dad's truck.

00:29:12.940 --> 00:29:13.140
Yep.

00:29:15.786 --> 00:29:17.230
With my baby riding shotgun.

00:29:18.615 --> 00:29:18.816
Yep.

00:29:20.385 --> 00:29:25.816
I drove this road trip all the way here, just me and Paisley.

00:29:26.237 --> 00:29:26.557
Mm-hmm.

00:29:27.117 --> 00:29:27.858
And my dad's truck.

00:29:27.858 --> 00:29:32.050
I didn't plan that.

00:29:32.050 --> 00:29:39.429
I didn't plan any of that because I didn't even think about bringing my dad's truck until yesterday.

00:29:39.429 --> 00:29:48.711
And yesterday I said to you hey, um, we really can't afford to break down and have our baby with us when we do it.

00:29:49.251 --> 00:29:49.491
Right.

00:29:50.532 --> 00:30:15.994
And I said as much as I want to ride all of us together, I think we should have a chase vehicle just in case and if I take my dad's truck, as much as it won't appreciate it, it can side of the road with a newborn trying to figure out, you know, a situation that we had to figure out a month ago you know, Thanks.

00:30:16.675 --> 00:30:21.211
So I said, hey, I think the best bet's going to be to bring my dad's truck.

00:30:21.211 --> 00:30:46.397
And then you know, you had put the car seat in um old red in the farm truck and I had been thinking, and I had left the car one of the car seat adapters in my dad's truck, because I was like man, it's stressful enough for you to be hauling the camper anyways and to be hauling on your own, but now also doing it and worrying about a newborn or the fact that you can't see her, you can't reach her.

00:30:47.265 --> 00:30:53.497
Right the last thing I need you doing is hauling a 28-foot camper and reaching into the backseat for a binky or something.

00:30:53.497 --> 00:30:53.958
You know what I mean.

00:30:54.278 --> 00:30:54.739
You know me.

00:30:54.739 --> 00:30:56.690
You know I'd try.

00:30:58.526 --> 00:31:15.259
When you went upstairs I swapped the car seat, threw it in my dad's truck and I loaded her up and it was just me and her the whole way and I didn't plan that and I didn't think about that.

00:31:15.259 --> 00:31:23.511
The other crazy thing for people to realize is the last time my dad took his truck on a road trip was to Freiburg.

00:31:24.114 --> 00:31:49.289
Yeah, the last time I truly saw my dad happy was Wednesday for Freiburg my dad drove up to the Freiburg Fair on Woodsman's Day with my mother and he was down there by our tent before we were, and I remember he was just so happy.

00:31:50.334 --> 00:32:03.853
Yeah, and I mean, if you've listened to the podcast you know that he's just a crotchety old man Like just not that day, Not last year, Not Woodsman's Day.

00:32:05.028 --> 00:32:06.994
He was so happy he was in such a good spirit.

00:32:07.144 --> 00:32:08.530
He was in such a good mood.

00:32:09.005 --> 00:32:16.733
He was walking around checking things out and admiring our display and then I remember making my mom walk him out.

00:32:16.733 --> 00:32:18.088
I'm like, hey, can you make sure?

00:32:18.088 --> 00:32:23.211
Like you know, I made my mom, I'm like because he was leaving and I was like you know what, you should go with him, you should walk him out.

00:32:25.510 --> 00:32:31.965
And she did and he was so proud of you.

00:32:31.965 --> 00:32:35.952
He was so proud of your display.

00:32:35.972 --> 00:32:53.356
I remember every night of the fair he would call my phone looking for my mother, and every morning he would call my phone hey Buck, hey Buck, how you doing, how's it going?

00:32:53.356 --> 00:32:54.558
Can I talk to Ma?

00:32:54.558 --> 00:33:00.384
And my mom would always say, like you know, my phone's saved in your phone too right.

00:33:00.605 --> 00:33:03.928
Yeah, same number, one number off.

00:33:05.993 --> 00:33:06.855
I can still hear him.

00:33:06.855 --> 00:33:14.440
I can still hear him.

00:33:14.440 --> 00:33:15.142
Do you have the white light?

00:33:15.142 --> 00:33:20.147
Yeah, there's a heater going on, but I'm too emotional to get up and turn it off.

00:33:20.147 --> 00:33:26.055
The thing that I haven't wanted to talk about, the thing that I haven't wanted to think about, is on Thursday.

00:33:26.515 --> 00:33:26.654
And.

00:33:26.875 --> 00:33:31.800
I'm sure on our next podcast episode we're going to talk about it a little bit.

00:33:35.105 --> 00:33:55.113
So I'm going to put on my big boy pants and I'm going to change the subject and I'm just going to focus on how crazy life can be and focus on how much your life can change in a year and the fact that there's positives all around you and sometimes you just have to take time to realize it.

00:33:55.184 --> 00:34:18.536
Like we're just sitting here now having a conversation and you realize that three separate occasions on Friday somebody came into our life to bless us and to say thank you and to show their appreciation, whether it was three mason jars of moonshine and a baby visit, if it was a hot meal and a baby visit, or godparents driving over six hours to meet their goddaughter right.

00:34:18.536 --> 00:34:21.050
Seriously, all that happens on Friday.

00:34:21.050 --> 00:34:25.344
You have to just count those types of blessings.

00:34:25.344 --> 00:34:48.389
And as I'm sitting here and I'm all in my feels and you know I'm crying in a camper outside the freaking Freiburg Fair, realizing that a year ago my dad's last trip in his truck that he loved so much was to the Freiburg Fair to see me, mm hmm, yep, to see me, mm-hmm, yep.

00:34:49.353 --> 00:34:57.193
A year later, I'm driving to the Freiburg Fair in my dad's truck with my daughter.

00:34:57.193 --> 00:35:01.791
All right, who's cutting onions Right?

00:35:02.193 --> 00:35:02.835
I'm all for this.

00:35:03.565 --> 00:35:19.398
Last year for the Freiburg Fair, there was a couple things, and this is what we talked about today on the way here was that at this time last year we never envisioned either one of these things happening.

00:35:19.764 --> 00:35:19.824
No.

00:35:20.686 --> 00:35:29.590
At this time last year I did not for a second think that I wouldn't spend Christmas with my father Right At this time last year.

00:35:29.590 --> 00:35:33.878
I never for a second thought I'd be back here this year with our daughter.

00:35:35.164 --> 00:35:36.391
Yeah, for sure.

00:35:37.565 --> 00:35:53.079
The fact that both of those things happened in the matter of a year is absolutely crazy to me, mm-hmm, and I absolutely thank Paisley for being here, because I can't imagine how much more difficult this trip would be without her.

00:35:53.925 --> 00:35:54.909
Yeah, I agree.

00:35:56.045 --> 00:36:05.179
That little turd as much as she's going to keep me up all night is already getting her parents through situations that she can't even imagine.

00:36:05.179 --> 00:36:08.539
But I like to think that maybe she can imagine.

00:36:08.539 --> 00:36:09.445
I like to think that maybe she can imagine.

00:36:09.445 --> 00:36:11.108
I like to think that maybe she does know.

00:36:11.108 --> 00:36:12.353
Yeah, you know.

00:36:13.175 --> 00:36:41.349
But Like I said earlier, the way that she just like I feel, like she just stares into my soul, like I just it's so, it's so warming, like I don't know it, just to me, when she just like stares at me like that, like this might sound weird, but like I know, obviously I know it's her, but it feels, it feels warmer than that yeah you know what I mean.

00:36:41.349 --> 00:36:41.931
Like I don't.

00:36:41.931 --> 00:36:44.538
I don't know how to explain it, but it's funny with me.

00:36:44.644 --> 00:36:50.998
she'll stare at me and like kind of show of show me some love, and then she always looks over my shoulder like at somebody else and smiles.

00:36:50.998 --> 00:36:58.056
And I can't help but think that she's like talking to my dad and is like all right.

00:36:58.056 --> 00:36:59.639
Well, this is the guy.

00:36:59.639 --> 00:37:02.914
I'm going to do my best I can to straighten him up.

00:37:02.914 --> 00:37:03.635
I guess you know.

00:37:04.804 --> 00:37:06.867
She gives you a run for your money, oh my God, when I'm not around.

00:37:06.887 --> 00:37:18.856
She gives you a run for your money, oh my God, when I'm not around when I'm struggling, when I'm getting peed on for the third time and she's freaking out because mom's not home, and she looks over my shoulder and just kind of giggles.

00:37:18.856 --> 00:37:24.862
I feel like she's looking at my dad and he's just like just give him a chance, would you?

00:37:24.862 --> 00:37:26.226
You?

00:37:26.246 --> 00:37:27.652
know what I mean.

00:37:29.487 --> 00:37:44.248
That's not how he would say it, but, man, I was working in the office the other day and you and my mom went out on a wild adventure and said we'll be right back, just gonna leave the little one we want to get you something, by the way right for the record for the office.

00:37:44.588 --> 00:38:01.074
To organize the office that organizational trip turned into like a five-hour excursion, which I mean whatever, it's fine, but like she was doing great for the first leg of the tour and then, oh hell, I broke this.

00:38:01.074 --> 00:38:04.432
I'm running up the stairs with a baby trying to make a bottle.

00:38:04.432 --> 00:38:09.594
One-handed, I'm like trying to get the proper temperature on water.

00:38:09.594 --> 00:38:12.166
I'm going through all the things.

00:38:12.166 --> 00:38:14.492
She's having full-blown meltdown.

00:38:14.492 --> 00:38:16.195
The dogs don't know what's happening.

00:38:16.416 --> 00:38:31.172
They can't understand why dad is running around like a nut job and the baby's screaming bloody murder I'm getting her fed long enough to calm her down because as I pick her up, she goes into meltdown mode and pees all the way through her pajamas and all over her dad.

00:38:31.172 --> 00:38:42.614
So I start changing her, I get her cleaned up and that turns into her totally turning herself on me while she's eating poo all the way up her frigging back.

00:38:42.614 --> 00:38:43.768
So I change her.

00:38:43.768 --> 00:38:57.809
As I get her all cleaned up and buttoned up, she decides to pee on me while I'm closing her up, only to get back on the couch for another meltdown, to only finally peacefully close her eyes when his mom comes down the driveway.

00:38:58.833 --> 00:38:59.135
Yeah.

00:39:01.425 --> 00:39:04.132
You're doing a great job, dad yeah it feels like it.

00:39:04.132 --> 00:39:05.027
You are.

00:39:05.429 --> 00:39:06.253
Yeah, it is.

00:39:06.253 --> 00:39:16.036
I don't really know what else to say, man, I'm a basket of emotions over here.

00:39:16.945 --> 00:39:18.271
You're a glass case of emotions.

00:39:18.291 --> 00:39:18.672
You know, it.

00:39:20.146 --> 00:39:43.068
I'm worried about Thursday, because Thursday is the one day that I always put all this weight on, because Thursday is the day that my Uncle Mike called me and told me he was bringing my dad to the hospital and I had to call you and then that turned into getting my mom out of here and then me working the next, you know, couple days, by myself and us making the decision to stay here while he was in the hospital.

00:39:44.532 --> 00:39:54.074
I think about the phone calls that he gave me every day while he was in the hospital and talked to me and told me how proud he was of me, but it felt like he was saying goodbye at the same time.

00:39:55.568 --> 00:39:59.657
I don't want to think about those things, but those are the things that just keep rattling around in my head.

00:39:59.657 --> 00:40:30.338
And if you guys have been listening, and I was talking to you about getting the phone call that our baby was being born and we had to leave another fair, like it was like PTSD all over again and thankfully we we made it through the birth and everything and it all went like it was supposed to go, you know, and we're all here and we're going to make the best of it and I'm just going to do the best I possibly can to focus on the time that I have you and her with me here this week and just make the best of this week.

00:40:30.338 --> 00:40:36.878
And then, when my mom's here, just focus on trying to make new memories and not dwell on the past.

00:40:36.878 --> 00:40:41.777
And I need to remember that when my dad was here, he was happy you know oh yeah, absolutely.

00:40:41.965 --> 00:40:53.742
And it's just depressing to think that this is the last time I'm going to do something for the first time, and the reason why I keep saying that is that that makes things feel permanent.

00:40:54.324 --> 00:40:54.445
Yeah.

00:40:54.684 --> 00:41:04.996
You know, when you start doing things and you start stacking years on, years, eventually we're going to be saying you know, we lost dad four Christmases ago.

00:41:04.996 --> 00:41:05.657
You know what I mean.

00:41:05.657 --> 00:41:17.092
Like as quickly as we're talking about how many campers we've had at the fair, we're going to be talking about how many years it's been and we're always going to think about my dad and the Freiburg Fair.

00:41:17.092 --> 00:41:18.275
Yeah, always.

00:41:18.735 --> 00:41:19.597
It's never going to change.

00:41:19.597 --> 00:41:20.318
For sure.

00:41:22.545 --> 00:41:26.894
But he was bound to determine to send us back here to the fair with his granddaughter.

00:41:27.956 --> 00:41:28.878
That's for certain.

00:41:30.646 --> 00:41:32.152
This is not our plan, dude.

00:41:32.784 --> 00:41:35.114
We've been saying this the entire pregnancy.

00:41:35.114 --> 00:41:37.432
This is not our plan, this is his plan.

00:41:37.684 --> 00:41:43.677
It's so far to not being our plan that I never even planned to bring his truck here.

00:41:43.918 --> 00:41:44.099
Yeah.

00:41:44.706 --> 00:41:50.016
Like that just happened and then it was a split-second decision to throw that baby in there next to me.

00:41:50.304 --> 00:42:02.481
Because not for nothing, but like we could have taken any of the four vehicles in the dooryard and drove up just to have a convoy vehicle with us.

00:42:02.925 --> 00:42:06.655
It's funny because my dad always tried to get me to, like, take his truck places.

00:42:06.655 --> 00:42:07.416
You know what I mean.

00:42:07.724 --> 00:42:14.134
Except for when I tried to use it, tried to hook it up with the horse trailer or haul with it or do anything.

00:42:14.134 --> 00:42:17.992
It was all fine and dandy until I was actually doing it.

00:42:18.706 --> 00:42:22.773
If I would have planned this out better, I would have brought my dad's ashes with me in the truck.

00:42:22.773 --> 00:42:23.454
You know what I mean.

00:42:24.684 --> 00:42:26.146
Well, that was the whole plan.

00:42:26.146 --> 00:42:32.010
He didn't want you to plan it, he wanted you to just do it, live it, be about it.

00:42:32.831 --> 00:42:33.353
It's crazy.

00:42:34.554 --> 00:42:35.173
What do they say?

00:42:35.173 --> 00:42:37.315
Been there, done that, got a t-shirt to prove it.

00:42:37.835 --> 00:42:41.820
Well, hopefully everybody comes out and gets a t-shirt to prove it, because we get some bills to pay.

00:42:41.860 --> 00:42:42.300
That's right.

00:42:42.300 --> 00:42:43.400
Divers ain't cheap.

00:42:43.661 --> 00:42:47.148
Goodness, come on out, y'all meet us at the Freiburg Fair.

00:42:47.148 --> 00:42:57.492
I promise you you're going to find something new here this year yeah, the baby that too, that too she'll be in the Popemobile she is going to be in the Popemobile blessing people.

00:42:58.552 --> 00:43:09.072
Please line up for your blessings you're going to be so blessed you're going to be sick of getting blessed you're going to be tired of being blessed, oh my god.

00:43:09.092 --> 00:43:14.675
Well, I think there's a hungry baby down the hall and we ain't too far from her freaking out and us trying to get some sleep.

00:43:14.675 --> 00:43:17.132
So what do you say?

00:43:18.346 --> 00:43:19.751
I say I'm ready for bed.

00:43:20.186 --> 00:43:21.150
Ready for bed, dear little mama.

00:43:21.585 --> 00:43:23.211
Yep, I am big daddy.

00:43:24.445 --> 00:43:34.016
Well, this bad boy drops on a winning Wednesday, and we're only about seven minutes away from Wednesday, so we might as well wrap this up Buttercup.

00:43:34.016 --> 00:43:36.427
So until next time.

00:43:36.427 --> 00:43:40.657
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Now go wash your broken hands, you filthy, savage.

00:43:49.965 --> 00:43:51.893
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