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It was the night before Christmas and all through the van, your old buddy Matt fell asleep on the can.
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His children were nestled two time zones away with his first wife and her husband in sunny LA.
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Matt woke up and realized with a chill and a quiver that he was living in a van down by the river.
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All that and so much more on the Loud Pod American Shed a Struggle Podcast, Christmas episode.
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Let me tell you something Everybody struggles.
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The difference is some people choose to go through it and some choose to grow through it.
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The choice is completely yours.
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Which one you choose will have a very profound effect on the way you live your life.
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If you find strength in the struggle, then this podcast is for you.
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Do you have a relationship that is comfortable with uncomfortable conversations?
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Uncomfortable conversations challenge you, humble you and they build you.
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When you sprinkle a little time and distance on it, it all makes sense.
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Most disagreements, they stem from our own insecurities.
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You are right where you need to be.
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Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh.
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Wait a minute, that's not right.
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Ho, ho, ho ho, hey, wait a minute.
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What'd you just call me?
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Whoa, whoa, easy, easy here.
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You're a guest in this episode, okay.
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Don't be calling me any names, not this close to Christmas.
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I'll take a present away.
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Wow, All right To the naughty list.
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Listen.
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Santa's watching, which, ironically, is what I was hoping for.
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Oh, good gravy, good lord.
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Welcome back, folks, to yet another Christmas spectacular.
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Am I right?
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Oh God, you beat me to it.
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Get on my level.
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Cheers babe.
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That's a nice cold deck beer right there.
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That's a nice cold bush.
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Should have done that when we opened it Bush.
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That's a peach addition to you.
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It is.
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I just noticed on the.
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Can you see the two little booty peaches right there?
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That's pretty funny.
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Looks like a booty.
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It's not a booty peach.
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It's like a booty on the can.
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These are deck beers for the people that are listening, that don't know what deck beers are.
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When you live in the Northeast and you don't want to fill your fridge up, you just throw your beers on the deck.
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Yeah, when it's cold enough, nice day cold.
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That's right.
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I think it's a whole 10 degrees outside today.
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They got a nice frosted edition because they got a little bit of snowfall this morning.
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A little Christmas Eve snowfall, dear, that's right, it's the most magical time of year.
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I don't know why I said that as a leprechaun.
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Wrong holiday.
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Well, ironically, I was over at Meemaw's house and Paisley was watching Christmas cartoons and we're putting on all the old ones, right, like the original Rudolphs and Frosties and all this stuff.
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There is a Christmas leprechaun.
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I only caught part of it.
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There's an episode where there's literally a Christmas leprechaun.
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Are you sure it's?
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Yeah, rainbow pot of gold.
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Scenario.
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Are you sure it's not an elf?
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No, it was a definite surefire leprechaun.
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It was a whole story about it.
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It seemed kind of cool.
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We'll put it back on later.
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I had to take off and do something, but anyways, we are recording today's episode of the podcast on the eve of Christmas.
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Christmas Eve, I'm pretty disappointed that you're not wearing your Christmas sweater.
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You didn't give it to me.
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You wouldn't let me open it.
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I told you where it was I should not have to locate my own present.
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I'm sorry.
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I do believe that you told me where to go find my own Christmas sweater this morning.
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Okay, moving right along here.
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Yeah, exactly, exactly.
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If you would like to take a pause, you're welcome to go on the deck and get your Christmas sweater, because we can't do a Christmas episode with you wearing an AR-15 T-shirt.
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That's the NRA, and you're just trying to get me topless.
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Maybe you did say you wanted to be on the naughty list.
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All right, please hold Woo Woo.
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All right, pretzel Woo Woo.
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So you went from an NRA t-shirt to a shotgun shells.
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Christmas Santa.
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Love it, yeah, love it Very, redneck.
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Jingle bells, shotgun shells.
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Yeah, that's what it says.
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I know it's a beauty, mm-hmm, but don't get your tinsel on the tangle.
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I know you saw me with my top off, I did.
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I know you saw me with my top off, I did.
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I'm going to have to wait until all the little kitties go to bed.
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You know what I'm saying.
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Good night, welcome to the Loud, proud American, sponsored, properly, precisely, beautifully named podcast, share the Struggle.
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We've been doing this little rosebud for shoot four years.
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It must be like our fourth Christmasmas special, because we started in 2020.
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Do the math right?
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First couple was, uh, christmas with clark, and then we clark on the shelf, clock on the shelf.
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Yeah, we had to, uh, change that up because we just couldn't line the schedules up.
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We're gonna bring him back on.
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We've been chatting about it.
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Um, he's got a lot of things to update.
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But last year we switched over to you and me doing the little little holiday soiree and asking each other some questions.
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And, um, I did a little digging, went online, found a whole roundabout of christmas themed questions and such that are in the old bowl of curiosity here and we're gonna just rapid fire some stuff, see if we can have some fun.
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Okay, enjoy ourselves.
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Have a few cocky tales and just see where, oh my God.
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Beer's moving.
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Wow, hey, brought to you by the bush peach, oh my, goodness.
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Hey, I'm a lady in a scholar.
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Yeah, lady in a scallop, you are a lady in a scholar.
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Yeah, lady in a scallop, you are a lady in a scallop.
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Before we get rocking and rolling, I was doing some research.
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I was going to do a different themed episode of the podcast last week, but we took off on a runaway on an important message last week instead.
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But I was doing a little research because occasionally I get a little gift-receiving anxiety.
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Okay, does that happen to you at all?
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Absolutely, gift-giving is my love language, so I obviously have a hard time.
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I'm a different version of anxiety Like I can't hold on to it any longer because I have so much anxiety.
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Like I'm like You're not great at keeping Christmas secrets.
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I can't.
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I'll tell you that.
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I just I want you to have it because I'm so excited.
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Oh, I want you to have it too, baby, good Lord.
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We're talking about Christmas presents.
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Yes, yes, I want to deliver you the present.
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Yes, you, you did, and she's four months old.
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Whoa, whoa, this is PG today.
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I just have anxiety when it comes to holding on to the present and putting it under the tree and waiting.
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So I have to hold off on shopping sometimes because I'm like I'm going to spill the tea.
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Like this week, when you gave me a Christmas present early.
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Yeah, and last month, when I gave you another one.
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I'm terrible.
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Well, for me.
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I love Christmas.
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I love giving gifts, I love being a part of big surprises.
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I get disappointed if I'm not pulling off major things.
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I have some things up my sleeve this year but I don't feel like I'm equipped to wow the pants off of everybody.
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But I've been a part of fortunately I've been asked to be a part of some cool surprises for friends and customers.
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You know designing things and doing things and that's been cool, but overall I love finding heartfelt, meaningful gifts.
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That's what I like to do.
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I want to make sure that either you want it, you need it or, like you know, it's going to be something that just truly surprises you.
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One of the keys to giving gifts and giving the best gifts is paying attention all year.
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If it's someone that you care about, that you're close to, if you could pay attention all year and then cue in on those things, I think that makes a difference.
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I have a note section, starting tomorrow, of the things that you mentioned, that you want that's pretty impressive.
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I'm serious way to show me up.
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I'm just saying that's it's perfect for a note section and I collect it for myself, as I did for you, and then I sent you over my list and it had what basically part numbers links yeah, amazon links listen, I know what I want.
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It's true I enjoy, you know, giving gifts and watching people open gifts.
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I get really excited about that.
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But I get a little anxiety when it comes to opening gifts.
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If it's I don't know how to put this I feel comfortable opening gifts in front of like you and my mom and, you know, like my family.
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But when, like, a friend gives you something like, it's great, I appreciate it, I love you for it.
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But sometimes aren't you like it's just, should I be getting this?
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You know what I mean.
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Even like with you and my mom, like if you guys have put all this effort into a gift and you give it to me like I don't know how I'm supposed to act, so I don't act normal.
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Does that make sense?
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Like I don't know?
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You're in your head.
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You're thinking are you like, am I showing enough of a reaction right now?
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Am I?
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Does it look like I'm faking a reaction?
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Like I enjoy what I'm getting?
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What am I supposed to say?
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What do I do with my hands?
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Yeah, I get uncomfortable with it and I guess it's actually a thing.
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There's actually like a, you know, an anxiety to receiving gifts.
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That's why a lot of people actually don't open their presents at baby showers and stuff Makes sense, because it's awkward.
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I mean, I love getting gifts right.
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Who doesn't right?
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There's nothing wrong with getting gifts.
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I appreciate every single thing that I get from somebody.
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I just want them to know that I appreciate it single thing that I get from somebody.
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I just want them to know that I appreciate it.
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So I overthink it so much when I get it that I don't know what to do with it.
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You don't have the tools in your tool box, because I am a tool, but it doesn't make a difference.
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When I was a kid, I had some bad reactions.
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You know what I mean and some of them stick with me Like I have the mind of an elephant.
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I remember these things.
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You do Dude, I can go back to.
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I was at my parents' house.
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In the living room by the front picture window we were having a surprise birthday party.
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I had all my friends over here and two of my friends bought me the same wrestling action figure.
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The last one, the second version, or person that gave me the gift I already opened, was Charles Ritterhouse, great kid great friend.
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Charlie gave me this, this present.
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I opened it up.
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It was the same action figure and I basically was like you fucking guys couldn't talk about this to see which wrestler.
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You know what I mean.
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You couldn't be like hey, I got him Hulk Hogan, let me get him Ultimate Warrior.
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No, but it was such a dick thing to do.
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The dog's in the christmas tree, by the way here.
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What else is new?
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wholesome.
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What are you doing?
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I want to scratch my ass started off sniffing the presents, and then he started putting his head in the tree he loves the christmas tree.
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I feel like he was a christmas elf in his past life he likes the fact that it rotates.
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yeah, that's one of the questions in here.
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I think maybe that I saw and if it comes to it we can skip over it.
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I mentioned it, but there's a thing in there basically about like, what's your one decoration that's kind of like, you know, over the top, or bougie, that's unique For us it's the rotating Christmas tree.
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It is because I bring it up at work, or I mentioned like that our tree, like rotates, and they're like, I'm sorry, what?
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We have a tree that rotates 360 degrees, so all ornaments are viewed on said tree.
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We also have a Christmas cactus.
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We do have a Christmas cactus that stays up all year, that's five feet tall and completely decorated and all.
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I don't think he's five feet.
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Yes, it is.
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That's what they say.
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That's what the box says, probably with the stand, maybe Four feet without the stand, maybe Four feet without the stand.
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Our dog likes to go over and put his butt cheese right underneath the frigging tree.
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He'll back his ass up to the tree and let it go around in circles and scratch his booty.
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He knows you're talking about him.
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Yeah, he definitely knows.
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He also knows it's almost Christmas because he's been trying to get into everything.
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He does like to open his own presents.
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Yeah, did you wrap their stuff?
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That's tonight.
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That's the last thing to wrap.
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Sorry, I was taking a sip If you do not wrap his presents, he's going to open up the baby stuff.
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This is true.
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He does love Santa Claus.
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So, to get back on my subject, I always think about how much of an asshole I was when I received that gift and how rude that was, and it bothers me.
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It still bothers me and there's been times when I've been like a arrogant, conceited little bastard as a kid and, um, like I regret not giving off the like best impression.
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Like my parents, I remember I went through this, this phase in high school where, um, all my friends had gold chains, everybody had big gold chains and I wanted one.
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My parents saved money and worked and they got me this gold chain and, uh, and it was great and amazing and awesome and more than I can afford for myself now right like it was legit, real and um, but it was different, a different link than all my friends and I was like you could read on my face that I was disappointed, that it wasn't the right link.
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You know what I mean.
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And I felt like a complete jackass to make the impression to my parents that they worked so hard for this.
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And it's not as big as some of my friends and it's not the same link.
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But yours was probably real and there wasn't well, the problem is is like I had some kids that were just friends of mine.
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They were just entitled rich fox, right right.
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Like I had kids that didn't appreciate anything and it kind of rubbed off on me.
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Like I remember riding around with a buddy that like we're in high school and he's got a brand new jeep, grand cherokee, with a bag phone in it.
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Yeah, like we that was.
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Like nobody had phones.
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Yeah, we're still using pay phones.
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You know what I mean, right.
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Like I don't think cell phones were a big deal until, like you know, I was getting out of school like towards the end of my maybe.
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Maybe I might've had a phone when I was like a sophomore or a junior or something.
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But to drive around with a phone in the vehicle right and I've had friends that just they were just had a bunch of money and it was.
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No, it was no thing.
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I always regret my reaction to that, like I always regret it and it's one of those things that I just kind of hold on to.
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So I think those experiences kind of cause me to be uncomfortable when I open things, because I don't want to recreate that yeah, makes sense the um irony and all that is that, like my parents worked so hard on that to buy me that and I wore it for the longest time, right never came off, showered with it the whole thing right and um had, like my mom giving like a football pendant charm on my number on, like I wore that all the time.
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Eventually it come to a point in my life where I was about to lose my truck.
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That's the truck that I still drive.
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That's not new and shiny anymore, she's all red, just be deterred.
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But there was a time when I lost my job and my truck payment used to be 585 a month and, um, I bought the truck brand new.
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It was the first thing I ever really bought brand new and I couldn't afford my truck payment and I went to the same jeweler that my parents bought it from.
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I went to see tank who you know and I had to sell it.
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I had to sell it back to him to keep my truck and it beats me up to think about it.
